This week I think Maddie grew up a little. Or maybe she was just acting crazy. We shall see.

Sunday my wonderful teenage son was apparently doing tricks with knives when his finger and a sharp blade had an unfortunate and unexpected meeting. My first clue was his voice coming from his room: “MOM! BLAH BLAH BLAH BANDAGE!” I’m sure what he actually said was, “Mom, get me a bandage!” or some such thing, but at least I heard the key word. I rifled through our always (unfortunately) disorganized box of first aid supplies and found a nice thick gauze square and ran downstairs. Sure enough, there was a rather bloody finger and a pretty upset guy.

After a minute or two of trying to gauge the situation, we decided a trip to urgent care was the best coarse of action. I ran downstairs to tell Maddie, who was in the shower (woohoo!) and the two of us took off.

After lots of waiting around and a rather uncomfortable session with a needle full of lidocaine and then five stitches, we returned home. All was well with the exception of a pretty sore finger.

What I didn’t know at the time was that my son had, in a fit of panic, left the water running in the kids’ bathroom. And the only reason I found out was because of what Maddie told me later.

“When you guys were gone,” she said, “I noticed the faucet was still on and then I noticed water everywhere. So I turned it off and cleaned up all the water and left the towels in the tub.”

Oh. My. God. She cleaned it up and then, like the genius she is, put the soaking wet towels in the tub so they wouldn’t ruin the floor. I’m not sure who else in my family besides me would have done as well. (No offense, guys, if you’re reading this.)

I was floored. That sounds like such a trivial thing, really, but in my house it’s not. Maddie is so capable of so many things, but she’s not always great at cleaning up (hilarious understatement) or following through. I was both surprised and gratified.

When she was young, she once decided to make the whole bathroom into a pool. She put a towel up against the door and flooded the tub until she got her wish. Unfortunately, that water eventually had to go somewhere, and I don’t know about you, but we don’t have a drain in the middle of any of our bathrooms, so the “somewhere” was basically “everywhere.” All over the wood floors in the hall and into the next room. Ugh. Actually I think she did that twice. At the time, and for years afterwards, her plans tended to be rather short-sighted. If something sounded like fun, that was really as far as she needed to think before she proceeded to make it happen. She used to dump out entire Costco-size $50-bottles of my fancy shampoo while she took a bath too. Those times provided my earliest data that no, in fact, my head would probably never ACTUALLY explode, because I’m sure it would have then.

Of course all our kids have done head-scratching things, as evidenced by all the photos I see on Facebook of kids smeared in diaper rash cream, or art-wearing babies and their toddler sisters standing next to them holding Sharpies. The problem was Maddie was no longer a toddler—not even close—when she was purposely flooding the bathroom without a thought as to how to dispose of the water.

But now she is seventeen. Things are bound to change. And they have. I still find myself having to coerce her into taking showers or brushing her teeth. The upcoming school year remains an empty page, too. I’m not especially confident that removing the “going to” part of attending school will be the solution, but we have to try something. Having ADHD (which is part of an Asperger’s diagnosis) doesn’t mean a person can’t focus on anything. In fact, if she comes up with a duct-tape project, I dare you to try and stop her. But writing a paper on a subject she doesn’t find interesting, or doing multiple math problems that seem to repeat themselves, just aren’t particularly motivating for her. I can’t remember a time when she announced, “I have homework” and then got it out and did it. Most years I had to sit next to her just to keep her focused. I didn’t necessarily have to help her, but rather just keep her on track.

So, here we go again, I keep thinking to myself. It’s still school, after all.

Yesterday her tutor Kim came to pick her up for lunch. Kind of a “reacquaint and start preparing for the new school” kind of a thing but without any work or expectations. I had to leave about 90 minutes before Kim’s arrival. The night before that Maddie and I had been in the hot tub when I suggested she just get straight into the shower after that since she was already wet. “My body is too tired,” she said. I tried to convince her of my genius idea, but she was adamant. Instead, we hunkered down to watch The Incredibles for the gazillionth time (it’s been years, though, to be fair). But before I gave up on the shower thing, I talked to her about making the decision. So often she promises to do something in the morning that she doesn’t feel up to at night, and then bails out in the morning as well. That can go on for days, as her hair gets greasier and rattier and her teeth yellow and her BO hits Code Red levels. But I also have noticed that when she’s really committed to something, she’s quite reliable. The problem is in the committing, and only she can know if she has truly committed. So I thought I’d talk to her about that.

“I believe in you,” I said. “When you decide to do something, when you set your mind to something, you always get it done. The key is in the deciding. You have to decide right now that you’re going to do it, I mean REALLY decide. And then I know you’ll do it.”

She nodded in agreement. “Oh yeah,” she agreed. “When I set my mind to something, you couldn’t stop me.”

And then finally, “I’ve decided,” she announced. Of course you can never really know what’s going on in somebody else’s mind, so I just had to accept her commitment and move on.

“Well, then I know you’ll do it,” I said.

The next morning just before I left for my morning appointment, I woke her up. “You’re going to take a shower, right? Kim’s coming at 11:20.”

“Yup,” she said, still under her covers. Oh, I’ve seen this many times. The insincere affirmative answer and then the predictable outcome.

There wasn’t much else I could do at that point, but I knew my appointment would be over by 11:00, so I told her I’d call her later. Honestly I wasn’t expecting much. Historically meetings with Kim go like this: Maddie doesn’t get out of bed, so Kim has to somehow talk her into getting up and getting dressed and it’s a whole long scenario from which I typically remove myself (as in, leave the house) mainly to preserve my sanity.

As planned I called just after 11:00. “I’m just calling to remind you to get up,” I said, clearly thinking she’d still be in bed.

“I showered and I’m dressed,” she announced.

I probably said, “WHAT?!” but hopefully I was more composed. If life were a musical (which I always wish it were), I would have broken into a song and dance for sure. Something glorious and uplifting.

These are the moments I feel tears of joy pooling in my eyes. My heart is full and I feel hope. The hope I felt when I saw those soaking wet towels in the tub. She got herself up and she took a freaking shower! Who IS this kid?

And then, She can do it, I thought to myself. And by it, I meant life.

All the thinking and effort and talking and more thinking I put into this parenting thing is having an effect. She is growing and maturing, and although she’s younger in most ways than other kids her age, there is progress.

So many parents I know have just taken their kids to college for the first time or have that next chapter of parenting in their sights. They’re nervous about how their kids will fare. Will they be able to care for themselves, the parents wonder. Will they feed themselves OK? Do they know how to do laundry? What happens when they get sick?

“Don’t worry,” I tell him. “They’ll figure it out. They always do.”

Will Maddie “figure it out?” I go back and forth on that one. But right now I’m feeling a bit more optimistic. She is figuring some things out. She might be 30 when it all clicks. She might stay with us forever. We don’t know. But moving forward sure feels good.